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flashback [Jan. 15th, 2010|01:06 pm]
sometimes i wonder how different my life would've been if i hadn't come to los angeles.

im hating the people around me now.

(doesn't include you, alyssa, and mama)
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woohooo! [Oct. 30th, 2009|05:09 pm]
OKAY PEOPLE IVE FINALLY GONE AHEAD AND STARTED MY OTHER BLOG!

check it out at

www.kalasiris.typepad.com

so far i've only got one measly incoherent post, but bear with me and it'll be up and running soon.

i am SO PROUD OF MYSELF. :) :) :)

i'll be keeping this livejournal as a personal blog. theres wayy too many stories in this journal that i dont wanna throw away, or abandon. maybe i'll lock this blog next time, we'll see.

happy halloween!
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(no subject) [Oct. 26th, 2009|07:50 pm]
i am really, really, upset today.

This morning started off with a spin class that almost killed me, a stupid, senseless attack directed at me on BBM, 6 long boring hours of class, a bitch of a traffic on the way home, and now an insecure bitch who is obviously too free has to get on my case.

im like trying to do my retail assignment and watch Hannah Montana at the same time, while waiting to see if the boyfriend will actually have the initiative and the heart to contact me.

my mom is ignoring me again, as usual.

i was beyond sick last week and the only person who took care of me was alyssa. and also monic, who was kind enough to drive me to DMV to settle my license.

i have so many friends but when i need their help, i realize that there's no one i would feel comfortable calling.

the world is a big place.

you know what. i think i can manage ok on my own.
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(no subject) [Oct. 18th, 2009|06:22 pm]
birkin??

or kelly????
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When does eccentric glamour become idiocy? [Oct. 6th, 2009|07:57 pm]
I have been in a self-imposed hermit situation to think long and hard about my passion in life, because so far, the only passion I have is the passion for shopping. And since that is my main passion (it is literally consuming my entire waking life) I am determined to channel it into ways that will make me tons of money, so that I can buy more de la Renta and Alaia couture.

Anyways, the boyfriend is here to visit for 3 weeks, and you have no idea how agonizing the wait for him to arrive was, since I was an emotionally unstable wreck over these past months. We've been to NYC for an awesome few days of walking around Manhattan & Brooklyn, window shopping in Soho and meatpacking and 5th & madison, attending a few jazz shows (including famous jazz legend Paquitto D'Riviera! - we sat right in front of him, seriously, i could have touched him if i stretched out my arm). Then we flew to Buffalo, NY to see Niagara Falls, which I have already seen from the Toronto side. Buffalo was freeeeezing with hailstorm and the most horrid weather I have ever been in in my entire LIFE. I seriously thought that for a moment, there's going to be a hurricane or something.

Of course, Niagara Falls was amazing and breathtaking, and soon we left for Boston! I love Boston! it is one of the most beautiful and inspiring cities I have ever been to. NYC is amazing with all the attitude and fashion and creativity, but Boston is just charmingly inspirational. Home to some of the world's best universities, there is a certain air of intelligence and age-old tradition that seems to be wafting about, even when we were in Lizard Lounge, an underground indie bar underneath the Cambridge Commons listening to the weirdest but coolest indie bands I've ever come across. I never thought that Boston would be such a melting pot of different fashion styles, music styles and personalities, but this trip convinced me that it is in fact, much more than that. People, especially the ones I've met and the new friends we've made, are so outrageously eccentric and I LOVE it. I ADORE people who aren't afraid of expressing themselves through their fashion choices, who bother to put a look together each and every morning. Be it hobo-chic, polished, or punk rocker, I have respect for people who understand the power and significance of their clothing choices.

We are back in LA and honestly, I missed LA all throughout my trip. I missed my apartment, my sister, and my shoe collection. Speaking of shoes, we were at Opening Ceremony on La Cienega this afternoon for a day of window shopping. Earlier in the day we were at the Balenciage boutique on Melrose because I was seriously contemplating the purchase of this particular pair of booties in the Pre-Fall collection, but decided not to, because even though I like them, I didn't LOVE them.

So after trying on this gorgeous Alexander Wang suited blazer which I know I will be buying next week, we went to the new Opening Ceremony accessories store, where i found the MOST AWESOME PAIR OF SHOES EVERRRRRRR! Ok i sound mildly insane but honestly, that's exactly how I feel whenever I see something I adore. Made by Camilla Skovgaard, these beauties are PERFECT for fall but also versatile enough for Spring and even summer. I can envision an outfit involving cut-offs, a white wife beater, and these Camilla Skovgaard boots. AHHH! Perfection.

Anyway, back to my post title. Was contemplating this question that I've found in Simon Doonan's (Creative Director of Barneys New York) book: Eccentric Glamour where he interviewed some of the world's greatest glamorous eccentrics, which unfortunately does not include the late isabella Blow, whom I personally feel is THE glamorous eccentric of our time.

When does eccentric glamour become idiocy?

When you finally decide that it is okay to blow of your entire monthly allowance on a single pair of boots.
When you finally manage to convince yourself that hey, owning 7 leather jackets make sense, even though you will be moving back to Indonesia in a couple of years.
When I convinced myself that wearing a necklace that weighed 1.5 kilograms is okay, even though my neck HURT after wearing them for 15 minutes, I wore them to school.

The list will go on and on, but unfortunately I have to rush to dinner right now because I am late.

Yay! I can wear my new shoes!
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>:( [Aug. 24th, 2009|12:36 am]
i am giving up quitting cigarettes.
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eyeliner & cigarettes [Aug. 4th, 2009|10:16 pm]


i love the bitterness and vengeance in this video. its my favorite music video of alllllllll time.

somehow i feel like i can relate to the bitterness... ?
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alpha/brainblock [Aug. 2nd, 2009|10:42 pm]
i am immensely stressed about having to start my serious blog soon, but now that ive finally got things going i dont know what to talk about. or rather, where to start. :(

im alll alone in LA again.
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the cry of my heart [Jul. 26th, 2009|08:20 am]
Being separated by circumstances had pushed me into a forced-independent mode that has now become second nature to me. I don't know if that is good or bad.

Its just that, i've learnt not to be too emotionally involved in a long distance relationship, because it is just so hard. Thinking about the other person constantly is a form of slow torture. I pine and pine, and yet no matter how much i wish and hope, time still follows its own patterns. You talk on the phone, and everything seems alright. But in that moment after u end the conversation u are left feeling even more lonely than u were before. U wait all day for a phonecall or a text, while in your heart all u want to do is to see him, touch him, feel him, laugh together, cry together.. All the simple human pleasures shared together.

But u know u can't, because u have an entire Pacific ocean in between. U look at the sky and reassure yourself that at least the both of u are living under the same sky, the same moon and stars, and yet time still comes in between. U cant even take comfort in the knowledge that he is sleeping while u are sleeping, having lunch while u are having lunch. Does anyone else knows how it feels to have an ocean and an entire timezone in between the both of u?

How do u survive months without having each other to hold, if u do not detach yourself from the relationship?

How do u lead separate lives without having to be separated altogether?

Does anyone know, how much i am bursting inside to be with the one i love? Does anyone know how it feels, knowing that you have years of slow torture ahead of u? Years of pining, waiting, wishing?

Time is relative.

The only thing that is worse than being separated from u is not having u in my life completely.
And for that reason alone, i'm holding on.
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V for Vegas [Jul. 23rd, 2009|09:57 pm]
so i've spent my entire life assuming that i'm a technology idiot, because there are just some things i can't deal with (like, installing email on my blackberry, and using the many features that are on my macbook). technology has always been the bane of my existence because there is just NO WAY i can figure out electronic stuff on my own.

mom decided that we need a TV in our apartment. we've been living in an apartment without a TV for a year and a half, which means that we never had a living room, since we rarely sit on the sofa because it is facing a wall. bought a 40 inch Samsung LCD and a ton of other stuff, because i decided that i'm gonna connect my macbook, the wireless keyboard, mouse and speakers into the LCD and have a one-stop entertainment system in my house. the plan is to set up the TV so that it will function as a computer so that i can play my itunes on TV and watch youtube on TV and do work on Photoshop on TV (how cool is that?!) and stalk people on Facebook on my 40inch LCD. life will be sooo glorious.

the amount of cables and stuff that we had to deal with freaked me out, even though they were all like, color coded, coz i KNEW that they'll never work. and i was right.

we built the TV stand and fixed the TV, and then my sister left me alone to deal with the TV, DVD player, speakers and my grand one-stop entertainment plan.

i STILL CANNOT BELIEVE that i managed to connect the macbook, wireless keyboard, mouse, AND speakers to the bloody LCD without ending up in tears. i'm such a genius i should get a degree in computer science or something.

sooooo now i have a huge ass TV on which i did my research paper on, lounging comfortably on my sofa with keyboard in my lap and listening to Late Night Alumni with my speakers. i'm soo proud of my ingenious idea.

anyway i have been on this MASSIVE camera hunt over the past week. was desperately searching for the Canon G10 camera all week and believe it or not, every single Best Buy store in Los Angeles is OUT of it. i called at least 20 different camera stores and there's NONE to be found. until i found this little Japanese camera store called Kimura Photomart on 2nd street and they said they had ONE left. i practically RAN to the store to get it after begging the store person to hold it for me. so now i have a new fabulous camera and i am in love with it! i feel soooo accomplished.

we're going to Vegas tomorrow for a weekend of pleasure and debauchery, hence the title. i am so excited it's ridiculous, considering that i live a mere few hours away from Sin City. but i havent been there since like the 1990s, i can barely remember how Vegas looks like.

ok im in love with my apartment now coz of the TV. its the best decision ive made in a longggg, long time. now i can stay home and bum around in my living room.. why do i have a feeling that i'll end up living my entire life on the sofa?
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